It is "STEP" as Mona, says...
Please feel free to use it in your blog post tomorrow, in whatever fashionable shoe style you choose…story, poem, photo, drunk narrative, 12-step program of your very own design…. You may use it as a noun, verb, adjective…
That 12 step program sounds might appealing to me. I got nothing as of now.. except for the stuff below..
Step Into Nothingness
He did not want to feel a thing
The weight of being a caring, loving human
Too much to bear.. sapping him slowly but surely
The desire to love and be loved, to hold and be held
To be the object of and the end of someone’s desire
A longing unfulfilled... is what sent him wandering the streets
No cures to crush his demons did he seek
To unleash the beast in him upon himself he did
To tear him apart to shreds
Flesh and bone torn asunder
Needle sliding gently
Into veins black with blood
Thumb pushing down on the plunger
Praying for deliverance
Step into nothingness
The voices in his head cried
As a void closed in
Fuck Ya!.. He whispered
A dying smile on his lips
Reflecting the finality of it all.